sunny days and therapy - Bunnie's Garden

Helloooo !!!!!!!!!

I am coming to you while I am unfortunately coming down with something.

I can always feel it in my throat when I’m getting sick and I woke up with it this morning and it’s only been getting worse 🙁

SO that’s POOPY

And today at work was so overwhelming and overstimulating and that did not help lmao.

But I was able to go home an hour early today so I was home in time for my therapy appointment which was nice !!!

I had some good takeaways from therapy that I’d like to share !!!

So today in therapy I asked how to cope with seasonal depression and needing more rest when I inherently feel undeserving of rest unless I’ve attained it and the requirements for earning it are near impossible

And we touched on some good things !!!!

The first is that of course these thoughts are not mine, they were learned because of the way I was treated in my past. I’ve internalized these negative thought patterns but I can work on separating myself from them and not giving into them.

The second point we covered is since I have quite black and white all or nothing thinking, we can focus on the gray area, or the middle ground.

Since I feel like I’m not deserving of rest until I’ve earned it and my goal for earning it is too hard to achieve, what is something attainable I can do instead?

And we talked about how I am doing things, but I don’t acknowledge these things since I am able to actually complete them it just feels like I should do them so it’s nothing to celebrate.

So I have to celebrate my wins !!!!! This is essential !!!!!!!!

I need to celebrate taking the trash out !!! I need to celebrate taking a shower !!! I just need to celebrate the things that I am actually able to get done.

and finally we talked about how I can finally view rest as important by remembering it serves a purpose which is to fill my cup so I can better give to other people, because of course I have nothing to give at work right now and I’m burnt out because I am doing nothing to pour back into myself.

NOT to say that rest is only important to serve other people, but it’s a good compromise for my brain to realize that rest helps serve me to fulfill my roles in life better.

So all in all some good nuggets of wisdom and things to remember for myself.

And before therapy it was incredible, I got to sit outside for an hour and just listened to Chromakopia blasting in my earbuds and journaled.

I enjoyed it so much !!!!! Like this is what life is all about baybee !!!!

It’s getting a bit warmer here and I’m hoping it stays that way, I can’t handle the cold anymore. I need the sun more than I need air to breathe at this point !!!

I cannot wait till it’s warm enough to where I just need a lil hoodie on my morning walks.

I’m TIRED of bundling up and it’s starting to get warm enough some warnings where I get rlly hot in my coat ;-;

It’s just a pain man I just need spring to hit so I can feel alive again

I cannot wait till I can go to the park and journal and listen to music and just EXIST in the SUNSHINE

here are my tarot pulls today btw !!!

The last card is from my sacred self care oracle deck!

I have simplified my daily pulls to one tarot card, and an affirmation and self care card. It just feels right hehe

I should watch a movie…… Maybe this weekend !!!!!

Tonight I wanna play Infinity Nikki heheheheheh\

speaking of, they released the CUTEST outfit let me show you !!!!

TELL ME THIS ISN’T SO FUCKING CUTE

IT HAS A TAMAGOTCHI AND BEDAZZLED CELL PHONE I LOVE IT LMAO

also damn y’all imma have to shell out some money this month because I am determined to get the new purification fit !!!!!

let me go grab a pic of it in the outfit preview hold on….

also let it be known i am GOING to get to 180 pulls because I neeeed the first evolution of this fit.

It’s purple !!!! You have to understand !!!!!!!

I currently have 52 revelation crystals so enough for five 10 pulls, and I need enough for 18 of them lmao

i gotta wait till i get paid again because i gotta pay RENT this time ;-; but believe me,,,,, it will be mine

my game is taking forever to load pls excuse this wall of text in between when I said I would pull up a picture and when a picture actually shows up lmfao

I no longer have TOO much completely unplayable lag in my game, but at the cost of loading screens that legitimately last 5+ minutes lol

Oh yeah I don’t think I ever touched on that ??? But suddenly after like the first update in Infinity Nikki I had so much lag I could legitimately not even move in game like it was unbreable.

My game is still pretty fucking laggy but at least I can play it on my computer again so hey I’ll take it !!! Clearly something the team is doing is helping my problem so I’ll just hope it continues to get better with time lmao.

okay my game has FINALLY LOADED. time for the PURIFICATION FITTTTTTTTT

LOOK AT ITTTTTTT THE WIND UP DOLL THEME THE BEAUTIFUL SKIRT THAT’S LIKE THE DOLL PASSING BY IN A WIND UP TOY ??????

INCREDIBLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND LOOK AT THE PURPLE ….

YOU GET WHY I NEED IT RIGHT ?????????????

it’s so beautiful……

I don’t like the 3rd evolution which is red but the 4th… oh my god the 4th…… I’ve noticed they tend to make 4th evolutions these beautiful rainbow shifting color schemes and it’s always beautiful

here is the 4th !!