new videos, new belongings, new thoughts

Hello dearest reader!!!

First I must share my streaming schedule with you!!!! I have been coworking really consistently on twitch every morning and it’s been a blast! plus I’m reincorporating friday night game nights this week !!!!!!!!!!

You may be wondering, why do I need a schedule when almost every day is the same??

That is because it will be changing soon!!!!

Next week I’m going to take a day or two off to see family and the week after that… I return… to… w…. to wo….. to wor…. to work. D:

I don’t know what day(s) I’ll be off next week so I can’t give you that schedule just yet, but I can give you the schedule for the week after that because I’ve already figured out what days and when I am working that week!

This one is pretty wonky. I have to start to split streams between mornings and afternoons, some mornings I stream longer than others, and one day I’m off work so we can do a regular full stream.

And as for the first week of August that schedule will come out later when I figure out what 2 days I’m working because I’ll have the rest of the week off to stream normally.

AFTER the first week of August we settle into what will be our new streaming schedule.

So stay tuned for lots of coworking goodness if that’s your jam! Or gaming on Fridays if that’s more your style! 🙂

Secondly I must tell you that I have uploaded 3 times since I’ve last shared a video!

The first one is journal prompts you can use to help you do a mid year reset:

Then I made a silly lil video about how law of assumption has made me feel a lot better about myself and my life, aka my last blog post in video form! So you can watch that right here:

annnnnnnnnnnd lastly and most recently, i give anybody who likes or wants to start journaling 30 random prompts to answer !!!

that wraps up all my uploads!

I’m honestly not sure what video I’m going to make next.

Ope, that’s a lie, I did film me making the first 3 spreads in my new junk journal.

Which leads me to my next point, I NOW HAVE A JUNK JOURNAL.

KNOW WHY? BECAUSE I NOW OWN A PRINTER LIKE I’VE WANTED FOR YEARS.

KNOW WHY? BECAUSE I MANIFESTED EXTRA MONEY FROM MY JOB !!!!

LIFE IS GOOD BAYBEE, LIFE IS GOOD.

I got lots of stuff!

But first let me show you my junk journal spreads because I already mentioned that and I’m so excited !!!!!

Here is my first one, an introduction page !!

second one is my favorite things, which you will recognize from my favorites page on this website LOL it’s just that in physical form.

Then we have an intro to the stuff I bought !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you like my girlypop edit of chromakopia in my boombox ?? because i fucking love it lmao

Next is a page dedicated to my silly little bread loaf, my one and only, Mufasa !!!!!!!!!

Ignore the fact that his 10th birthday is actually yet to pass, I looked up his birthday after already writing this down lol. I had just seen that I adopted him in 2015 and was like HOLY SHIT IT’S BEEN A DECADE MY BABY IS AN OLD GEEZER !!!!!!!!!!!

Speaking of, I plan to play cat cafe manager on his birthday!!!!!!! I wanna do something cute for his birthday hahaha. We’ll have to see but I’m planning to stream whatever it is !!!!

Next two spreads are both dedicated to Infinity Nikki, because how could I not???!

Peep the new popstar fit on the left that’s on sale for only 60 stellarite !!! I had to have it !!!! I made the concept of her photos her performing for a crowd hehe. But yeah, I bought that one discounted sale they had for stellarite months ago so I still have thousands lolololol. So any stellarite outfit I like is always MINE >:3 until i run out ;-;

This is kind of an homage to the early days of the game, as these are all fits I created very early on and the fairy fit was such an early banner as well!! Wasn’t it the first banner actually???? Yeah I think so actually, along w the flutterstorm fit banner.

Lastly we have my most recent spread, my Chromakopia spread !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so happy with this one, I was actually stricken with fear once I pasted my mock ticket from the concert in there along with the pictures bc I didn’t wanna fuck it up with my bad writing lmao. But I pushed my inner perfectionist out of the way and made my entry !!!!

Shoutout to glue tape btw. I got some bc I’ve seen journal girlies use it before and used it on anything rectangular instead of my glue stick and I like it a lot!!!

So yeah, new items !!!! I got the Epson EcoTank ET-2800.

I have wanted a printer for literal YEARSSSS because I’ve been illegally printing things with my works printer for my creative projects for YEARSSSS

(It’s not illegal obvi but if anyone from my job ever reads this, no you didn’t. I didn’t do it this is all 100% a joke haha funny!)

But yeah I’m over the moon. I can make so many things now !!!!!!!!!!!

And since I’m still fully infected by the journaling bug, the first thing I thought of to make was a junk journal!!!!!

I think it’s more apt to call it a creative journal/scrapbook journal because I’m not using random ephemera that I own for the pages and instead just paper, but it’s more simple to just call it a junk journal imo.

I am LOVINGGGGGG this new medium of expression.

I’ve always stayed away from junk journaling videos cause I was jealous I couldn’t print out stuff like they could and make cute spreads. Even with commonplace book videos if they have pictures my inner critic was like “HMPH, must be nice !!!!” like girl shut up and be happy that they can creatively express themselves lmao

But now I’m one of those people that I used to be jealous of !!!!!! Aint that a beautiful evolution!!!!

So yeah I purchased a cheap blank journal and some glue tape to embark on this new creative endeavor. The cheap journal is definitely cheap, the GSM must be pretty low because you can even see the previous page through the blank page, not just the other side of that page. I also think that’s due to the texture of the page, the pages are kinda glossy which I found odd. But it’ll do! I bought it so I’m sticking with it. Once I fill it out I’ll probably upgrade to a higher quality journal with higher GSM. (GSM is paper thickness btw)

And as you read in my journal spread, that’s not the only journal I purchased!

I also got these two GORGEOUS paperblanks brand journals !!!!!!!!!!

I couldn’t resist because I had been wanting them for a long time now and when I got my money I was like you only live once !!!! fuck it we ball !!!!!!!

And look! It has a holo coating!

So shinyyyyyy. So prettyyyyyyyy.

I of course am using the aubergine paperblanks journal right now, and I had previously purchased blush pink from the same silver filigree collection to replace it.

BEAUTIFULLLLLL

Isn’t it beautiful how the silver makes so many hearts if you look close enough?????

But yes, so once I finish aubergine and then blush pink I am moving onto olive fairy and then violet fairy.

As you can see I’m not one for the blank moleskine/leuchtterm look of a journal, I want ornately decorated and unique journals hehehe.

And after the journals I bought THE PINK. BOOMBOX.

It’s everything I’ve ever wanted. I haven’t been able to play the cds I’ve owned for forever now because I haven’t had a dvd player (i use my ps4 which doesn’t play cds) or a cd player so I said enough is ENOUGH. I love unplugging from technology and listening to music while doing something off my computer or phone, it feels so magical. So now I can do that !!!!!

Here are my cds I own right now too 🙂 It’s not all of them, but just the ones I had within reach.

It also has bluetooth if I want to connect it to my phone so that’s a huge plus.

Which I plan to use for the unexpected perk of this boombox, which is being able to listen to music while coworking!!!!

I play copyright free music from epidemic sound whenever I cowork on stream. But sometimes I’m exhausted and need a lil pick me up and the classical or lofi music just doesn’t do it for me.

But ever since I’ve gotten my cd player, I’ve listened to Megan, Doechii, and Olivia during stream while my mic was muted so I could jam out and wake myself up while everyone else got to vibe to the chill music.

I don’t play spotify music on stream because I personally find it overstimulating when I enter a coworking stream and they’re playing energetic music. Even if it’s music I like I’m still like woah nelly calm down there pal !!! I’m tryna get in the zone !!!!!

So now I can just pop in a cd or turn on bluetooth and play whatever album i want as long as it’s during the muted work session !!! It’s the perfect crime !!!!

I also had one other purchase arrive to me yesterday but I want to make a junk journal spread dedicated to it and show y’all because it means that much to me so I’ll wait till next blog post to spill the beans !!!

So yeah, I am absolutely blessed with my new items and I couldn’t be happier.

I’m just so happy in general lately. I feel like vraylar is my miracle drug that has swooped down and carried me out of the depths of my long lasting depression.

Which reminds me I’m having a great time on twitter recently.

I got into using it again and I only see really positive content on there and I love retweeting things or tweeting my own positive messages. It’s addicting hehe. I need to find the same kinds of accounts on bluesky bc I kinda neglect that platform except for essential content update tweets bc it’s just easier for me to use twitter esp now that I can make longer tweets as well.

I posted this hilarious video on twitter that I need y’all to see

This is me on July 11th, 2022. It was the first time I had gotten sick since my mother had passed 5 months prior and it made me miss her comfort terribly. I also saw a tiktok of a child excited to see his grandmother and it broke my heart realizing that my children would never experience that same joy. Then I kept seeing things on tiktok that made me think of her.

It sounds bleak but I promise it’s funny. I even found it funny in 2022, I originally posted it with the caption “they’re a 10 but this is their mental state”

See, I told you it was funny.

But I posted it to be motivational as well.

This is a perfect example of how things get better.

It may take days, weeks, months, or years, but things get better.

I’ve been so happy the past few weeks. I feel so good about myself and my life.

I feel for the version of Bunnie that is in that video. They were hurting so deeply with seemingly no way out of it.

But they held on. And it got me to where I am today.

I actually just wrote in my morning pages today how I am so grateful to past versions of me for never giving up.

I have been near suicide many a time in my life, but every time I kept going. Every time I held on for dear life despite how hard I wanted to let it all go.

And I’m so grateful. The idea that I would’ve died without getting to feel the happiness I do now is haunting.

I have been so deeply traumatized and unhappy since I was a young child. So many of my memories are blacked out from trauma but the ones that stuck are mostly negative. This is genuinely the first time in my life I’ve felt healthy and happy.

So to give up before I ever got here would have been tragic.

But I didn’t give up. I didn’t die. I kept living. And I made it to where I am now. Happy. Energetic. Grateful.

Above all else I feel so, so grateful.

When you’ve lived your whole life in total darkness you will never take a moment in the sunlight for granted.

I’m bipolar, so while the meds are currently helping me, I do fear a relapse into depression someday.

But the happiness I feel now will keep me going if it does happen.

To know that happiness is actually possible for me, actually something tangible, is enough to keep me going through any bout of depression I may feel.

I will never give up hope. It’s all I have sometimes.

So all of this to say, I’m just really happy to be in this current stage of my life.

I am definitely romanticizing the shit out of my life.

I can’t help it, I’m a sentimental lover girl now and forever !!!!!!!!!!!!

(which reminds me of this image lmao)

Me 10000000%. And I’m NOT sorry about it. >:3

I just love making everything I do seem romantic and special.

To turn simple moments into rituals. To savor every last drop of positive emotions evoked in me.

It’s such a wonderful way to live life.

So yeah, I’m enjoying myself right now.

Just living in the moment of this current joy and making no wishes about when it will or won’t end, but just taking it day by day.

Oh, speaking of little joys, look at these pretty flowers I found on one of my morning walks!

They’re little staaaaaaaars!!! How beautiful is that !!!!!!!!

I’m fucking loving my morning walks.

It’s such a nice moment to myself to clear my head, work on manifesting, or to listen to music or a video just for funsies.

I also saw the fattest fucking bird this morning omfg let me show you.

FAT FUCKING BIIIIIIIIIIIIRD what an absolute unit he is

for reference, this is how big the robins usually are:

you see the difference right???? you understand why i got so excited seeing that fat ass bird????????

Absolutely incredible.

I also saw kitties on my walk today !!!!!!!!!

little tiny wonderful furry friends.

Hmmmm, I think that brings me to the end of my ramblings!!!!

Thank you so much as always for reading whatever nonsense I have to say. It’s greatly appreciated.

Pleaseeeeeee take care of yourself today, in whatever way you can manage. You deserve it.

Thank you so much, take care, until next timeeeeee, goodbyeeeeeee!!!!!!!! <3333333333